So i've come to the realization that I do indeed have the plague. I must. That is the only explaination I can come up with for the amount of disrespect I have to put up with. I like repel awesome guys and draw in crappy slutty ones. It sucks. Dude one day i'm going to find what i'm looking for but it doesn't look like anytime soon. And until then I am off the market. I'm soooo sick of crappy guys. I'm not a damsel in distress looking for her prince charming. I'm an independent, succesful woman waiting for her loyal, respectful boyfriend. I do not need any fancy, rich guy. I just want an average good looking, smart, witty guy. Is that too much to ask for? Seriously?

Well. Today was eventful. And I found out two things. 1. My friends are awesome and love me. 2. A certain guy sucks. Yeah you know that guy I was speaking about how great he is? Well yeah I retract what I said. Kay so this guy decides to ask a chick he knows I hate to our winter formal at school. He asked her because it was a bet with another chick on who could get the hotter date. Hello!!! Am I not good enough? Jeeze I mean come on!!! Omg I'm too angry to write about that anyway. I do though have awesome friends that called this issue to my attention. They are beautiful thoughtful loyal women. And I love them lots!! They always have my back and I trust them more than an ol' stinky guy. So in closing, "Don't trust him, never trust him. Don't trust him, and don't trust me."

I hate her. She ruins my grades and tries to steal my friends. She is a wretched woman and she needs to choke. kay thanks all for today.

Today was a beautiful day for one of my friends. She exchanged promise rings with her boyfriend. And even though I am defintiely happy for her, I cant help but feel saddness. Her family and friends were there supporting her. I only wish my mother would put past her judgemental ways for two seconds so I could have a moment like that. Whever anything happens in my social life my mother could care less. She doesn't have time to deal with my "drama" its not even always drama sometimes its good. Like this guy i'm dating, he's important to me and that is something you want to talk to your mom about. But I cant because 1. she thinks all men are evil. 2. she is too stuck on jesus to notice anything in my life. and 3. she is mean to everyone I ever try to introduce to her. So why in hell would I want anyone to meet a mean, bitter old lady? "No mom it's not enough, dont touch my hand and call it love." She thinks a hug will cure our horriable relationship. No it's not enough. Your not strong enough!! pssshhh...I wonder if she will celebrate me leaving for college or if she will be sad her maid left...ummm...I know this is so random of a post but thats how I feel confused,jumpy, and random. Well...off to listen to Adam Lambert to lighten my mood and eat my Olive Garden!